Tuesday, February 16, 2010

我还是很讨厌那个想太多的我。


庆祝人生的第21个农历新年
一样停留于雪兰莪、霹雳与吉打(还有曾经的槟城)
见见一年仅见一次面的亲戚们
和甚少见面的朋友们

但心中已少了从前的悸动
那个因为要南下回婆婆家而兴奋得睡不着
很开心地要红包并猜想某某包多少钱
从前纯粹的快乐
已不在。

这就是所谓的成长?

在4小时的回家途中
从前的一切再度浮现
童年和小学中学生涯
很多脸孔在眼前摇晃
曾经短暂出现于我人生的同学与偶遇的陌路人
他们过得怎么样了?
也想起了父母年轻时的脸庞
兄妹小时侯的笑靥

我知道我们不应一直缅怀过去
而停滞不前
当我们愈加成长
肩上的重任愈加沉重
渴望得越多
认为得到的越少
同时也见识人性险恶
而时时带着警惕与猜忌他人的心。

但我相信
还有很多美好的事物
在等着我们去发掘
我们也需感恩
感谢我们的诞生
感谢出现在生命中的每一个人
感谢我们所拥有的

但还是希望
总有一天
会重拾微笑

那发自内心的微笑。

7 comments:

Bebedores do Gondufo said...

Good blog.

jfook said...

I think all of us have grown up. I do have the same feelings with you as well. It's normal. No more excitement and anticipation on CNY. Less ang paos, less friends visiting, less relatives to visit. Hopefully next year can go traveling during CNY.

Mean said...

Just dont think of the past. Maybe grown up is a good thing. You can carry out things that you cant do when u r kidz. If thinking about the past will only make u unhappy, wat for to tink back.. Jux look forward to find something new that can make yor life more colourful and meaningful. Then you will feel happy. Always look at the bright side, rmb? haha..

SuFang said...

Bebedores do Gondufo- Thanks! Although I know u dun understand what was I writing about. LOL

Jfook- Travelling is a good idea. I think I need that.

Mean aka old woman- I don't want to think but I can't stop thinking. Haha. Memory is always the most beautiful rite? Future is uncertain and unpredictable so hard to look forward. LOL. Yaya, look on the bright side. I will^^

Mean said...

memory is something good. if the memory was happy one, think back oso ntg harmful. but if it was something that make you sad,then better dont think back. We should learn form mistake, but not to be sad becoz of the past.. besides, dont call me old woman k... i am younger than u.. haha..

SuFang said...

Not sad. Just miss the good old days. Haha~ Mumble like old woman still deny the fact that u r an old woman.

Mean said...

same to u... always whinning like old woman.. should change to old woman aka auntie dy. haha.